Tuesday, September 29, 2009

missing my KISA

my KISA (Knight in Shining Armor) is gone this week.

5 days without him.

5 days with all 3 kids and first trimester nausea/exhaustion/emotions...24/7

i don't know about you, but i depend on my husband for a lot.

he takes the pressure off of being a perfect mom. cause i am not, and if i was left to my own devices i would be comparing myself to all those amazing mamas out there who have it all together.

he helps out so much with the kids in the evening, even though he is tired from an 11-12 hour day with a commute.

and lately?

well, lately, i have been less than the generous wife. i have retreated to the bedroom to lay down in hopes of catching up on the dead-on-my-feet feeling. that and the ever-present nausea that makes me just one miserable lump.

the last few weeks i haven't been able to do most of the things a homemaker should, at least not well.

well, he has been a trooper. he has let me take my naps on the weekend and done bath duty at night so that i wouldn't have to smell the children's shampoo and body wash.

he has foregone fried eggs in the mornings so that i don't smell them all day. he has put up with leftovers and sandwiches for dinner many times so that i wouldn't have to smell dinner cooking.

and now, he is gone for 5 whole days.

i think i needed to be reminded of how much he does and how little i appreciate him. he is indeed my KISA, and i am hoping that he knows deep down how much he is loved and needed.

God paired us together 11 years ago, and for that i am ever grateful.

even if i forget to tell him so.

i love you, honey. travel safe and come home soon.


Stonefox said...

You are so right!! THANK GOD for wonderful husbands!!! Your post made me fall in love with mine a bit more.

gin said...

i am glad! we had a sweet reunion when he got home...i hope he doesn't have to go on any trips in the near future!

CarrieLovesKeith said...

What ?!?!?! First-trimester nausea??? I guess that's what happens when I don't see you at church for months at a time when my kids are in the middle of a sick-streak.... Well, belated congratulations!! I will pray for you this week! Pregnancy is not easy, and I so remember those days of trying to take care of kids and not barfing all over them :~)

gin said...

hee-hee, carrie! thankfully, the nausea is abating earlier than usual :) i am almost 17 weeks and enjoying the flutters! i hope your home is illness free soon!!! i wondered why i hadn't seen you at church recently :)